Free

And so I did it, going all way out, telling Silly just how much I like her so that I can know how much she wants me to give up on her. She'll literally force herself to like someone in order for me to give up on her after hearing as to how only will I give up on her, which is why I think it's time, to let go ALL. That's crazy and that's the thing which I cant accept at all. So yea, I guess that how to wrap up the chapter and well who knows, another chapter in friendship might sounds not that bad, right. Plus what's more, all my guessing and prediction are on BULLSEYE. Should go buy toto or Magnum after this, who know...millionaires in one night haha. Was it after you liked me only you intro me ET Squad?? YES..I did...coz I want you to meet my friends and get to know my friends circle. Same goes to Seb group as well. To be honest, I think maybe it was me who accelerates things too fast that that feels just kinda evaporates too soon if I didnt continue to work on it, and yes...on the night of 31st of March right after we back from badminton...I fuck up everything...what's about the solution which we both agree to talk out if any shits appears...but I did talked out and told Silly the facts that I kinda care about her saying as days by days goes on, she enjoy being alone more and more often. Coz that sentence to be honest, affects me a lot. But guess what, things already happened and yea, we cant possibly undo it like it never happened, my mind was made up to remember things and details like this so I just want to be true to myself.

Well after we talked those things out in car, she did actually begins to get frustrated and I know these are the last thing that I wish to see with both my eyes. Just maybe in future she'll get a clearer picture of it, but for now, it's just that, maybe like what Min told me, not the time as she's still confusing and those thoughts?? Are not on par with her maturity, yet. Ck (ET group) asked me questions and there's this one which I truly answer it to my heart content as in with sincere, He asked me: why would you hold on on her while there's still other girls who you deserves more?? I mean, come on...if you can rationalize this kind of things, then there would surely be no chemical reaction and what's more, love is BLIND. Both of us laugh as in HAHAHAHAHAHA~~ At the end of the conversation, he wishes me good luck and all the best..which I dont know what it means. I am just tired, very tired.

Right after we talked out, I went home with full speeding coz of 2 reasons, which is I get the green light full road oh yeaaaaaaaa and things are running wild in my head too, and to rush for celebrating our dear sister Sydnie's bday. Ended up, its me who got prank by them and we went for a drink right after I told them that I went to talk to Silly about our matter. Sebastian knows me well enough that I need to release all of them, and so...yea UNCLE DON DRINKING TIME. and whooaaah....fartttttt, out of the 12 shots in the menu, they ordered 8 shots for me,and want me to finish them like in 10sec, if not...well another tower for me...I was kinda scare coz the last time I remember I took those in one shots, and all mixed up, all hells breaks lose...as in I literally just throw up and my stomach was really really in pain. But who cares, maybe, just maybe things will be different these time around, and poof...pop pop pop pop pop pop pop..Tequila, Martini, Blue Label, Bombay Sapphire, Barley, VSOP Hennessy, Black Label and Cognac. I finished them all in 10 sec...fucking 10 sec....nothing to be proud of but yea..they failed...hahahaha....after that, they ordered 4 pints of Carlsberg for me...i was like wtf, just give up already...I know myself well that if I didnt throw up on those shots, those pints are nothing to me already.

The night was good in atmosphere as me myself didnt want to screw up the environment for dear Sydnie and her bf Eric...and so I told myself to not not not to screams and tears up. Not this time, and surprise I did it. They are sort of impressed by the amount of alcohol that I can tolerate, but hey, maybe its because i have a good metabolism rate right...coz the last time I went to check my body age, last 2 month...It was 22 years old...lol guess those badminton routine did helped me a lot huh...<3 badminton.

So, I guess everything ends here and time to concentrate on my career and make moneeehhhh....relationship?? Guess wont be so soon anymore...things are already different after what I went through this time, not sure its a good or a bad thing, let's just hope it's a good one.

Leon